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| A bell I with my mom's name on it. So she can be with us in spirit every Christmas. |
I baked cut-out cookies with Elisabeth today. Just like how you used to bake cut-out cookies with me every Christmas from the time I can remember. I found a little cookie sheet, toddler-sized and showed her how to roll out the cookie dough and how to jiggle the cookie cutters so the cookies would come out easily - just like you did with me. You would have been proud. And loved to see the look of accomplishment on her chubby little face when the cookies were on her little cookie tray and in the oven. And just like you, I forgot to document it with my camera.
This is the season where I miss you the most. I miss baking with you. I miss seeing your boxes of cards and hand written Christmas greetings cluttering up the living room. I miss your decorating flare and how even the window sills were adorned with Christmas nick nacks you had accumulated over the years. I miss spending hours in the freezing basement, wrapping the multitudes of gifts you got for everyone. I miss your oyster stew and the lutefisk you made every year for Dad. I miss attending Christmas Eve Lutheran service with you and singing joyous songs about our Savior's birth together with the rest of the congregation. You were the epitome of Christmas spirit. And we all loved you more for it. You made Christmas special for us. So much that I still want to still believe in Santa Clause and want my children to see the spirit, magic and wonder of Christmas - the same why you did for us.
I am trying desperately to create the same spirit of Christmas here in our home with our wee ones. From the nativity scene at the base of the Christmas tree to baking so many sweets we are bound to be diabetic, you live in my heart and are part of your grandchildren's Christmas each year. We love and miss you.
Your daughter,
Kristi
Oh, how I miss her so too. I cry about her often. I want to just hear her voice once more to tell me about her soaps or her new doll, or anything. I just can never get into the Christmas mood anymore. All of you guys are so far away and I miss you all terribly. Talking on the phone makes things even worse. She will forever be in our hearts and with us always. I love you and miss you so much and I cried when I read this.
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